When I began therapy, I knew very little about the ways trauma had affected me. Or that others had experienced the same thing and felt the same way!
How do we learn about something that terrifies us? Even when books are suggested we can't read because reading about trauma triggers us. We say things like . . .
"I don't like reading."
"When I read, it makes things worse."
"I don't understand what the books are saying."
"I fall asleep when I try to read."
I felt all of this! Our subconscious will do everything it can to keep us from thinking about what happened to us. That is how we survived, but understanding trauma helps us heal. We can know that there is nothing wrong with us, bad things happened to us--and our body's coping strategies are both how we survived and what is causing us pain. See Trauma-Informed Guide . . .
Our stories and how we protect ourself often standing in the way of learning. This is why I do my best to weave information and storytelling together while throwing in some humor and whimsy to make things less intense. Reading can be difficult, but it is important for healing.
Know that you are not alone! This BRAVE reader's Amazon review says it best!